Let me just start by saying that this CHART ITSELF is dangerous bullshit.
So how about those Right-Hand Path people who are also ironically prejudiced and judgmental as all get-out?
And don’t even realize it.
How do you reconcile paths that build the self (also called Left-Hand Paths) with some spiritual “schematic” that insists that you raise your frequency toward “Omega” (which is the creator of this chart’s word of Source/Spirit/The All) if a lot of self-deification involves learning how to work in an magnanimous way with some of these “lower”-frequency emotions?
I’ve personally experienced, as a prior adherent to this collective of Alignment-with-Source Is Better Than Alignment-with-Psyche No Matter What nonsense, that some people vibrate sympathetically “higher” in regards to being closer to the emotions of this “Omega Point”, and some people actually vibrate higher in regards to things that are listed in the middle of this diagram:
Love (conditional, especially)
Reason,
Acceptance,
Willingness (in terms of willpower),
Neutrality (if by neutrality you mean “magnanimity”),
Courage (which isn’t a lack of fear, but bravery in spite of fear),
Pride (I’d say confidence-of-Psyche more than “arrogance”),
Anger resonates well with me, and when I see it in others, if it’s basically just righteous indignation. Because in building what your Psyche “stands for”, it will naturally ricochet off of what it doesn’t stand for. But that’s what Magnanimity is for:
As you empower yourself, you learn to use that power to help yourself and/or others to varying degrees.
And people who go for Service To Self (STS) rather than Service to Others (STO) should not be maligned. The only thing that should be objectionable and considered unhealthy is having one without the other: Your ability to be of service to others will suffer if you don’t take care of yourself.
And “taking care of yourself” does not mean simply showering yourself with words you read on Positive Psychology in order to “raise your vibration”… words that actually tend to dismiss a large proportion of the human experience, as if negative emotions were cancerous and unhelpful. They’re not. They’re intuitive and insightful.
And in general, “Desire” should not be placed on this diagram at all. Everyone desires. Suffering in the face of desire- so, “Covetousness“- might be more accurate of a vice for any spiritual path to look out for.
I don’t believe all people respond to these emotions the same way. Frequencies are like striking a bell, not like just picking up on sympathetic vibrations like some kind of passive conduit.
Some people are struck with those “mid-level” emotions and respond by vibrating as high as others respond to the “higher ones”.
Actually, the closer I got to Source, the worse I felt.
Spirit workers of “Left-Hand Paths” are more about finding a balance point “dead center” in between Spirit and Gaia, Cosmos and Chaos, Light and Shadow. What balances and empowers Itself at the center is the individual’s own psyche. Or capital-P “Psyche” if you will. And with their Psyche fortified, they’ll vibrate at whatever fucking frequency they want because there’s nothing “better” about “higher” anyway.
The middle point is where I resonate the best, am the happiest personally, and the most helpful and beneficial to others.
You can keep your Peace and Enlightenment, and I’ll be over here with my Ego- thanks.
I have a theory that Left-Hand Path vs Right-Hand Path may take quite a bit of ricocheting to balance out, if you come too heavily from one side and take it beyond its helpful conclusions.
I had a Kundalini Awakening (if you need my “credentials”, I was actually diagnosed by a team of clinical psychologists as “suffering the effects” of a Spiritual Emergence- they use the term as a colloquial, and actually consider it synonymous with psychosis in a clinical context).
Which is like the par excellence of Right-Hand Path.
However, afterward, I found actually that shit just made me nuts and siphoned all my vitality and made me a miserable wretch to be around.
Yoga became a source of this aimless rage, meditations that used to bring samadhi suddenly brought crippling psychic backlash, and even trying to do Reiki with my actual physical right hand would cause my energy to get all wonky.
I actually– around the time I worked through a lot of powerful post-traumatic stress and mended some vital fences with my mom and did a great deal of healing-…
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… The collective energy from my Zen practice created a sort of “beacon” that went off during the build-up periods of, actually, a few Kundalini asplosions. And it was enough of a beacon that it forged a spiritual communication with a fractal of a Deitic force that I identified as that of Set from Ancient Egyptian culti.
And around that time, also, my Reiki teacher actually had to attune me for Reiki channeling through my actual left hand, and I also had to switch to my right hand in order to receive crystal energy.
Totes “doing it wrong”, but umm… Shove it, please? Because I’m not going to put a crystal in my left hand if that’s going to shoot crystal energy at unsuspecting passersby…?
It was weird, and I’m glad we caught the shift as it happened, because I was really in a period of clinging to my old Right-Hand practices, and rejected the notion of anything that would seek to differentiate Psyche from Source.
(Left-Hand Paths basically accentuate the Psyche and turn it into basically a self-contained quasi-deity… still bound to this realm, but as close to a Source-In-A-Vacuum as you can get without surrendering to the “Big One” as Right-Handers do.)
I personally believe that every individual should make sure they’re open to recognizing if a shift occurs and be willing to make radical changes if the shift is radical, and subtle changes if the shift is subtle.
I don’t care if that means you donate all your yoga mats and incense to charity- or burn them if that’s your catharses- and become a neophyte of some infernal cult that openly practices curses!
Honor your energy, and do it ethically. Being a dick to people who change course is not being ethical, and can be incredibly stifling at its mildest, and dangerous and life-shattering at its worst.
If I get to a point where the pendulum swings back toward Right-Hand, I truly hope for the sake of my well-being (and not going psychotic and hurting the people around me who depend on me) that it swings only slightly, and perhaps to a place where I can have a “ambidextrous” approach-…
Wherever my karmic blueprint takes me, I’m fine with it.
The “ambidextrous” balance isn’t the same thing as anything I can conceive of as the “balance” of each particular Handedness Path. To be balanced in Right-Hand paths, you basically have to disperse your psyche’ic influence evenly between Gaia and Spirit (“Root” and “Crown”, or “Earth Star” and “Higher Crown” if you’re into transpersonal stuff)….
And in Left-Hand paths, you basically concentrate the psyche’s energy into a point between Gaia and Spirit, forge your ego boundaries, superego flexibility, id tempering… and then navigate basically wherever the fuck you want anywhere along the “energy axis” of that fun little fascist diagram at the beginning of this post!
I can’t imagine what “ambidextrous” would look like in terms of balance, because you can’t disperse and condense at the same time unless you’re some kind of actual Deity on another plane.
So, I’m not too worried about any notion “for now, at least”. If it happens, it happens.
Western notions of “Spirit Work” are far too one-sided, and that’s also bullshit.
The kind of esoteric societies that cater to Left-Hand Path walkers who are cenobitic (group-practice oriented) tend to be much more difficult to navigate in these times since we live in a globalizing culture that pushes a lot of this Cookie Cutter “spirit work” that’s way too one-sided.
As indicated by the rhetorical “alpha and omega” axis on the OP’s chart, in which the bottom is clearly seen as inferior.
Which is kind of a slap in the face to people who do shadow-work, tbh.
But anyway, I don’t know how I’ll have the social access and means to self-deify since I’m rather cenobitic, and because those kind of societies have been pushed to the periphery by Stepford Yoga(tm), they’re usually only accessible to people who are rather well-off financially. Because rituals and vestibules cost dollars.
… So, I don’t foresee being able to “Take Left-Hand Path beyond its helpful conclusion” (as I managed to do with Right-Hand) for the reason of differentials of access to other practice containers that would accelerate my progress toward whatever the Left-Hand version of a Kundalini Awakening is. So, the chance of me having some Infernal God-Mode Awakening may be slim until I get a job or something because I don’t think there are any Kemetic (Ancient Egyptian culti) or Neosabbatian Kabbalic monasteries that will let me stay there if I chop vegetables in the kitchen and ask real nicely.
Darkworkers get kind of shafted, actually.
Yes, the Light-/Dark- thing is kind of a misnomer.
Lightworkers are Right-Hand.
Darkworkers are Left-Hand.
There’s a little bit of prejudice in those terms if you consider how Love and LIGHT is pushed as some sort of Be All End All of spirit work these days.
It’s not a dichotomy so much as it’s a like… a spiritual orientation.
Like I wouldn’t function very well trying to force myself to use cognitive faculties that are outside of my skill set, I’m not going to function well by doing the kind of Surrender-to-Spirit that is involved in Lightwork/Right-Hand Path.
I’m also, in another of these false dichotomies, of no real use to others if I’m engaging in Service-To-Others (STO) as my primary mode and Service-To-Self (STS) as my secondary “back-up”.
I would even dare say that Lightworker/Darkworker and STO/STS are not mutually exclusive and are certainly not synonymous.
Shocking. I know.
Lightwork/Darkwork could be considered “which frequency works best for you” of referencing Fascist Chart above, and STO/STS would be “what do you have to do with your Psyche’s energy in order for it to function in the most beneficial way for everyone including yourself“.
The “including yourself” comes across as nails on a chalkboard to some Western practitioners of especially Eastern practices. That’s very troubling, and terribly inaccurate.
Not all Lightworkers are STO.
Hindu-Buddhist schools can be very STO-oriented, yes, that’s true. Like the mahayana practices in Buddhism, in which the practitioners abstain from complete permanent absorption into Nirvana in order to “stay behind” and help all beings.
However, some vajrayana (tantra) and pretty much all sravakayana and pratyekabuddhayana practitioners (also disparagingly called “Hinayana”) are Service-to-Self!
And they involve basically transcending this world because it’s suffering and suffering is icky they don’t wanna anymore!
It would be the difference between becoming an “bodhisattva” (mahayana, those who “stay behind”) or an “arhat” (sravakayana) and “buddha” (pratyekabuddhayana). The latter two don’t “stay behind” and basically just get the fuck out of here or they end up teaching from their transcendent position.
I would argue that many American yoga practitioners are actually Lightworkers who are forcing themselves to be STO-primary when some of them might not be, leading to the neurotic Stepford Yogis(tm) who aren’t really all that happy and are actually kind of assholes and stuck-up in regards to their practice.
A lot of the reason so many Western practitioners of Eastern traditions fall into traps is because they’re being way too stringent with what they consider “doing it right”:
Eastern traditions did not disparage arhats and pratyekabuddhas unless they were novices and their more well-tempered teachers basically told them to stop being prejudiced assholes and to shut the fuck up and go clean a floor or sit under a tree or something.
This image of the “Peace and Love” as the only way is very damaging. It’s akin to spiritual fascism, and I’ve heard many stories of people going off the rails and destroying their lives, going clinically insane- been there, lived to tell the tale- who were basically shamed for “doing it wrong” when they told supposedly compassionate people about their reservations about continuing to practice.
They’re told “Well, if you did [x;y;z], your kundalini awakening would have went smoothly.” And they dismiss it as “must have had a bad teacher.” They also tend to be very unsympathetic unless you agree with them and admit that you’re a dismal failure and throw yourself back into a fire that your Soul is basically saying “No more!” to.
Bitch, my teacher was one of the highest-esteemed Zen roshis in the United States and I would choose her monastery over any of the shitty homogenous yoga-factories or OSHO(tm) cash-cows in this spiritually-bankrupt excuse of a “Western adoption” of Eastern practices.
I don’t even follow those paths anymore, but I believe they are tremendously powerful if and only if they’re open to being flexible on the STO/STS axis.
How many people are out there who are claiming to have transcended their “Small Self” and just move on to talk incessantly about the Ten Different Words They Have For Different Kinds Of Self: “Big self, “small self”, “thinking self”, “true self”, “Ego-mind”, “Heartmind”, “Pure-Bliss-Consciousness”, ….
…. Yeah, finding a way to split yourself into 10 different things is definitely very transcendent of you.
Bonus points if you disparage people who would choose “Ego-mind” over “Pure-Bliss-Consciousness” any day of the week.
Extra bonus points if you disparage people like me who do make that choice but still respect others for making any of the “10” (or more) other choices..
You know how much crap I get for speaking out about this?
The immediate thing I’ve gotten is basically the spiritual equivalent of Tone-Shaming where they assume I’m defiled because I dare call someone out. Because that’s too “angry”.
There’s some stupid shit going on, and reacting subversively to stupidity is actually helpful if I gauge my audience!
You know how many Right-Hand Path MASTERS are even more heavy-handed than me?
Many right-hand pather’s in America don’t know that, because they’d rather get their weekend Vippasana retreat to “calm down” twice a year than to go to a financially-struggling local sangha for free once or twice a week and actually work from someone who’s not completely misrepresenting Hindu-Buddhist practices in a very dangerous and arrogant way.
Just because your Psyche is dispersing across the cosmic-chaotic axis and surrendering to Spirit, does not mean that the social sanctions against other practices that are implicit in your practice guidelines are in any way helpful and “loving”.
(Example: Every yoga practitioner who talks about “Ego” as if it’s some festering cancer that needs to be eradicated from existence…)
That shit is damaging. The original Hindu and Buddhist practices were about basically “Tightening-Up” the ego to borrow a slang term.
They were not about self-annihilation until much much later on, and only if the practitioner chose that path.
The yoga system in the commercialized world is a joke and is very dangerous because it fails to transmute people’s ethical parts of their psyches and their intrapersonal self-oriented parts, before putting them into these yoga positions that could trigger a kundalini “spike” before their mind is disciplined enough to handle it.
Yoga has eight limbs, not just postures and breathing practices.
The inflexibility of some people rests solely in how insecure they are in their own spiritual convictions:
If they were secure, they would be able to validate multitudes of life-paths and still feel convicted in their own.
I’d much rather be ranting about the bastardization of Western practices- and even the prejudices that exist even in Eastern practitioners, then to be in some automata state of manufactured “bliss”….
Even if that requires that I embrace my ego and rail against Egregious Bullshit of Especially Heinous Proportion.
Even if that involves me thinking I’m clever and awesome in the process.
Because I am. And I’m also helping, so bugger off, wanker.
Because that’s how I help others after helping myself.
I no longer force myself to follow love-and-light as if it’s the only way, and no longer become completely reactive and prejudiced- and even flat-out belligerent- against people who dare challenge that bogus exclusivity.
I’ve actually met very few people on those “bliss-oriented” paths that haven’t completely skewered me and acted as if my ego were cancerous.
They literally assume that I’m miserable simply because I’m choosing to embrace something that will never go away (Ego) unless you become a transcendent master.
And, if they knew anything about the Bodhisattva statue on the front desk of the yoga studio (in front of the cash register in front of the overpriced HuggerMugger products they have on sale)… they’d know that those bodhisattva warriors who practice Service-to-Others will never be a transcendent master and a bodhisattva at the same time because the whole point of bodhisattvayana/mahayana is to stay behind, abstain from transcendence, and help all beings basically play Catch-Up.
It’s so arrogant, and I’d much rather hang with the “angry” Satanists because at least they tend to be like “Hmm… if that peace stuff is where you get your kicks, more power to you, but I’m gonna go direct bad karma at someone because they’re being a dick to other people.”
/Drops mic/
/Reads my own words over again to tickle my ego/
/Won’t shit all over people who get off the shit I get off on
/Super Saiyan liek lvl 7/